About two years ago, I decided to start this blog on international affairs. It was a quiet time. I had taken a year off from school, and was living in Los Angeles to be next to my beautiful girlfriend. She had moved out there to pursue her own education, and I was just this sidekick with time on my hands. It was a wonderful opportunity to pursue my own forays into philosophy and thought. But not only that, I had the chance to climb and bike everyday. I was able to experience California and its culture and, in that time, develop a deep desire to return. It was really a moment of self-discovery or self-definition, depending on your worldview. I could spend hours delving into my own thoughts, and understanding my own perspective.This blog was, in part, a reflection of all this internal work going on.
Suffice it to say, however, the busyness of life came roaring back and my moments of reflection / creation dwindled. I was accepted into an MD-PhD program at Boston University. I had to move to a new city with new people. I had to redefine my priorities in the context of what medical school demanded. I had to feel the distancing of my love, and eventually witness the end to that relationship. Overall, these life events stopped this blog (or journal, more accurately) from evolving and, concurrently, my thoughts from developing. In this whole process, I also had lost a deep sense of my own self and my own value.
My hopes for this blog have changed. I no longer desire to be an expert on the Afpak region, although it remains and continues to be a fascinating and volatile region with Osama Bin Laden’s death and Pakistan’s resentment of American power. (because in my mind the US has never resolved the most pressing issue - the Pakistani-Indian relationship). Instead, this blog will take on a more diffuse purpose. I hope to regularly reflect on the books that I read, the brain that I study, and the world that I experience. I do not profess to be an expert in whatever I write and, in the end, it is entirely meant for my own edification. However, if anybody has any comments or ideas they desire to expound upon, I invite them to do so. There is nothing better than human dialogue.